Ever since you killed me

Ever since you killed me
My spirit will not sleep
The way that you behaved
Summoned me back from the grave
Following in your footsteps, where you go
I’ll go there too…

I will control your mind
When you go to sleep at night
Finally know you from within
And see your every sin
I’ll be your silent witness and I’ll judge you
For good or for bad…

With a ghostly scream
I will wake you from your dream
For your eyes I will manifest
And your cardiac arrest
Will finally free my soul and we will both rest
Rest in peace…

Summerland

Looking around in anxiety
How concrete walls stare back at me
How can I bear this being alone
The hollow caves are made of stone
Only the thoughts of my desolate plan
Remind me I once was a man
The fatal dreams escape the light
Where all the fools before me died
A sinner among the sinners
An everlasting pain
A voiceless thought running through my head
Will soon drive me insane

The levels of my consciousness are deep
When spirits haunt my dreamless sleep
Whisper to me with their snake-like tongues
To whom my cursed soul belongs
A sinner among the sinners
An everlasting pain
A voiceless thought running through my head
Will soon drive me insane

It’s raining tears of crying angels
In endless wastes of time
A frozen flower in the garden of Eden
Where only stars may shine
My cold dying soul will slowly close its eyes
But I don’t sleep to well and I’m sending myself
To the gates of hell

In a dream I fantasise
How I will slowly rise
And watch through the eyes of a child
The world that could be
To be unbound wander round
Far across the globe
Through a god-sent no man’s land
On the wings of hope

Please Come Home

Wake up
I couldn’t get to sleep the night
when the final verdict fell:
You were leaving
but not without a word
you said..

“Wake up
I just wanted to say goodbye
My bags are at the door
Will you wave me
Goodbye a final time
tonight ”

Now it’s many years ago
Have you found what you’re looking for?
Is it all you expected it to be
A life without me?

Please come home
Yes please come home
Ever since you’re gone it’s cold,
So please come home
I’ll try to change
If it’s not too late
I’ll give you a reason to stay
And add one every day

Wake up
I couldn’t get to sleep tonight
As the ligth reflects upon
empty spaces
on your side of the bed

Now it’s many years ago
oh how it seems eternity
Do you find the grass is greener now
or are you lonely just like me?

Please come home
Yes please come home
Ever since you’re gone it’s cold
So please come home
I’ll try to change
If it’s not too late
Ever since you’re gone, I’m cold
So please come home

Clueless

Searching for reasons, hidden in the rights
Our sons turn to the game-set
Shooting soldiers in the night
Exposed to the lure, taking the bait
They’re easily trapped and fooled
Our flesh and blood claiming to choose their own fate
They loose their own faith

All join hands in the line of lunatics
Here on the world-wide festival of fools
Radio or lady’s private little monsters
Dancing to the angels and demons in their heads

Looking for warnings, hidden in the wrongs
Daughters look up to their idol
Copy their life from her songs
While too old, for the playing field
Still too young for a life
Their virginity lost with their innocence
On a nightly battle field.

All join hands in the line of lunatics
Here on the world-wide festival of fools
Radio or lady’s private little monsters
Dancing to the angels and demons in their heads

The River

Out in the heights of snow-capped mountains
In barren wastes is where it springs to life
Its melting crystal raindrops fill a clear pond
Quenching birds and beasts that are enticed
Perfect beauty
A peaceful silence
Where streams gently meander downhill
Slowly growing
A majestic river
For centuries passing by as if time stood still
Flowing on
Towards the sun

A mighty river flowing from the highlands
Where nature rules a lost kingdom of peace
From the distant west into the world of mankind
Into the crowded cities in the east
It’s clear waters
Turning darker
The factories pollute its shallow bed
Their children’s future
Longtime forgotten
We wash our hands in innocence they said
Wanting more
They fight their war

The Balance

Feared and outcast we stand, workers of magic,
The keepers of the balance of life
Crafted in age old rituals keeping the earth
In delicate equilibrium
Watching in revulsion the oblivious crowd
Taking control of this world
Feeling replaced by theorem and laws of nature
Replaced by the nature of law

Heeding what your hallowed books command you
You abide by rules you believe divine

Masters of the black art of secrets of life
Versus the reason of man
Inventing machines of destruction
Believing it to be a sanctified gift from your gods
Spinning your wheels of fortune
Playing with powers you cannot comprehend
But when all cards have been played
And none remain you may be holding the fatal one

Heeding what your hallowed books command you
You abide by rules you believe divine
Heeding what your hallowed books command you
You’ll die on your knees before your shrine

Knowledge without wisdom is like a poisonous flower
That blossoms in spring
The ignorant who picks her, will pick only death
Taking innocent lives with him
Crafting your machines of war
The barrels of your cannons obscure the sky
Of a world in its final hour
Oh yeah

Proud of yourselves
All headed for destruction
Maimed misguided souls
Marching on towards the end
Hallowing the martyrs
Who right before them fell
Chanting names of gods
Who open up the gates
Of hell

Wakerun

Savouring
The taste of running sweat
Adrenaline
I feel it rushing to my head

Accelerate
Never giving in
A deadly race
No one will ever win

Struggling
Against the whirling tractor beam
Escaping
From getting sucked into the stream

Spiral out
From Earth’s trajectory
Desperate
To outrun gravity

Praying to the gods of the wind
To find my sail
Racing ahead with the devil
Right at my tail
Onward I’ll fly
Like a blazing star through the sky
Losing track it feels
Like a blind chase with death at my heels
Trapped in the wormholes of space
I can only pray
Send me a fallen angel
Who shows me the way

All left behind
To their fate will most certainly die
Tell as a last deed
The survivors to bid me godspeed
Tell them to look out for me
In the southern skies
Tell them to look out for me
In the northern lights
Tell them to look out for me
Always

Traitors lured out of their lair
Are out to destruct
Trying to catch up behind
But I just can’t be stopped

All left behind
To their fate will most certainly die
Tell as a last deed
The survivors to bid me godspeed
Tell them to look out for me
In the southern skies
Tell them to look out for me
In the northern lights
Tell them to look out for me
And run free

Angel’s call

Moonlit skyscapes open wide
Whirling clouds dimly lit by fading stars
Gazing up from a dying earth
The wind is cold and the tides begin to turn
Silent spectres fill the air
Thin as smoke but I know they must be there
Will she come down to save my soul?
Way up high I can hear her distant call
“Hear me…”

Takes away the voices in my mind
She will send the shivers down my spine
Wipes away the tears I cannot cry
To stay forever with her, will I need to die?

A dark and endless tunnel
I was trapped inside
On the brink of madness
Desperate to see the light
That will obscure all others
And blind my mortal eyes
From the night I can hear her call

And when my angel flies away
She’ll take away my light of day
Back falls my body in the darkness of the night
Out of control
Unfortunate soul
Into the black hole
A bodiless soul

Where I was
On the shores of a silver sea
There I was
Being the man I was meant to be
When time sneaked up behind me
From the gates of hell
I’m a stranger to myself

The world is wrapped in darkness will it ever end
Accused of seven deadly sins I should repent
Twenty years of blindness take their bloody toll
Demons of the twilight come to claim my soul
From the waters come their hands that drag me down
Need draw my final breath before I drown
When my head goes down I kiss the world goodbye
Praying to my guardian angel in the sky

Life is so much colder
On my side of the galaxy
Longing for my angel
Who will come for me
Descend once more from the skies
And take me to the light
For eternity

And when my angel flies away
She’ll take away my light of day
Back falls my body in the darkness of the night
Out of control
Unfortunate soul
Into the black hole
A bodiless soul
The hear that she stole
Will never grow old
And find you

All lyrics written by Mark Smit, except Clueless (Jankees Braam) and Please Come Home (Charlotte Wessels)