The Gate of Eternity
Wandering among the shades of night
My friends at peace but still in sight
Hear their muted laughter in dusted dew
The only youth we ever knew
A restless sea the source to know
How often vainly sought in things below
The crown of pride that killed each mortal brow
Oh heavens and earth they’re falling now
Oh let me shut my eyes close out
Oh Lord vanish the angering doubt
Through the raging tears in my heart declare
And these stormy clouds they are everywhere
Let me cry out loud…
The evening flies on ruptured wings
The hours of delight that once they bring
In agony so far away
For every past as well as future day
In fragrant fear of deep regret
How do I strain and shall forget
And clouded scenes with treacherous skies
My maddening brain has reached the lies
Yet still the static leaks of an untuned radio
Nobody hears me now I am ceased where can I go
Storm lifted waves shift rushing to the open shore
Back through the darkest cave you can hear the thunders roar
Can’t find it now
Just show me how
I wonder why
Just let me die.
Forever now
Dreamt-up answers kept turning into nightmares
Chasing myself on a merry-go-round
Roller-coaster spiral down darkness
The burden of proof weighing heavier still
Without this change in mind I nearly lost it all
Lost the will to fight and get up after a fall
I would not intervene I thought that it would pass
I shattered the dream and broke my world of glass
The past it hunts me like a forever now
Holding the future at bay
Nightmares roaming the streets in my mind
Keeping the dreams away
The life I want was pushing me on
The one to forget holding me down
Like a lighthouse at night
The past it burns me like a forever now
Like a new dawn on the horizon
See the light at the edge
Just as I tried to rise to my feet
For my salvation to meet
The light it shines just like a mirror
It comes from deep within
Pick myself up and just look around
I recognize the light I found
Conviction
Please don’t convict me to this world I hate so much
Please understand me hear me out before you judge
Cause you don’t know me
Cause you don’t know what I fear at night
Or what I dream
Or how I breathe
Or how I wake up in my own sweat
Or how I scream
When I wait for death
When I lie here alone in my own bed
Cause you don’t know what I feel when the darkness turns off the light
Please sorry forgive me I don’t know what I say
I’m crazy chasing the sun that is why I act this way
It’s not that I don’t love you
Or hate you in any other way
It’s just because
I feel lost
When I see you walking away
Maybe you
Can pull me through
Until1 the beginning of a new day
Cause you don’t know what I feel when the darkness turns off the light
Come on baby please listen to these words to you
I’m not perfect I’m crazy but all I say is true
Cause you don’t know me
Cause you don’t know what I fear at night
Or what I dream
Or how I breathe
Or how I wake up in my own sweat
Or how I scream!!!
When I wait for death
When I lie here alone in my own bed
But with you I’m not scared when the darkness turns off the light
Conspiracy
I seldom believed that I would fight this dreadful dew
I never thought that I could find myself in loving you
Always searching for something
Always being misunderstood
Do I have to blame it all on myself
Or take a look back in my childhood
Dawning waves echoing through my body
Sound my nature’s fantasy
That has always been a secret game of my minds conspiracy
The wrinkles of my fathers face left me a chasing memory
That’s just another consequence of society’s poverty
Time to reunite
And banish the hatred between the loving of mankind
One thing more to do, unbelievable, but true
And educate the church in a contradictory point of view
No more hide and no more seek
But making up for waste of time and taking a loose reign
An old friend dignity observed his identity
He smiled and said: you’re a man now, so take the responsibility.
Mortal Brow
Let me hold you once again
Give me shelter now and then
Till I find my way
Looking down upon me now
Coming out I don’t know how
Is it here to stay?
Throughout the night that follows the fight
All heavens are falling now gilding each mortal brow
Where are the heroes that arrive in the night
Come back and let me know how to survive
Deep in the shadows alone in the cold
The nightmare begins the horror unfolds
Born out of darkness by masters of death
It crawls through the night devours with its breath
Moods Inspiring Clouds
Reflecting rays from a sunlit stream
Passing strangers as in a dream
Butterfly thoughts like a fingerprint
Nature’s thoughts carried on the wind
As the clouds hunt the sky
And the night begins to weep
They never wonder why
And lay their heads to sleep
But all this time I tried to restrain
Thought I had to fight to avoid the pain
All I had to do was wait for things to pass
Bend instead of fight like the wind curves the grass
Dew-drops shine through fragile green
Fragrant moss, sounds unseen
Windswept dreams, sunlight warms
Morning waits with open arms
When the clouds leave the sky
And the light returns again
They never wonder why
How the sun could chase the rain
But all this time I tried to restrain
Thought I had to fight to avoid the pain
All I had to do was wait for things to pass
Bend instead of fight like the wind curves the grass
As the sun again lights up my day
I know these feelings aren’t here to stay
The night will come again cold and dark
Memories will pull me through like a joyful spark
A new day at last (for Ferry)
Back in the ignorance of life
And fears came during the nights
Through walls of rain
While I’m feeling this pain
Forever you fall and no ground to claim
The bull of doubt batters its way
A boy discovers his play
And tries to find the crimson king
With eyes insane
Forever you fall and no ground to claim
When trouble comes your soul to try
You find acquaintance just stand by
For now the fears have disappeared
We kill the doubts as if not here
Soon be revealed
The final page
The broken past
A new day at last!